I feel like I should be at a meeting, holding hands and lighting candles . . . "Hi, my name is Amy and I weigh 178.5 pounds." You all, would of course reply with, "Hi Amy!" But I digress . . .
My weight as of today, is officially 3.5 pounds heavier than just prior to delivering Dylan. Oh shit.
The good news? I was actually close to 175 pounds when I got pregnant with Halle.
The bad news? All that weight has shifted around over the last year+. It's now tucked into all sorts of different places that I didn't even know existed. And those hidden places make my clothes not fit. Not even close to fitting!
So, all that good news/bad news aside . . . I can do something about this! Absolutely! The last time I did Weight Watchers online was four years ago. i started at 169 and ended at 144. I lost about a pound per week. And never exercised. So, in order to achieve my healthier lifestyle . . . because I want to be healthy, not just (a lot) thinner . . . I'll be exercising moderately through this journey.
I also realize that 144 is not a realistic weight that I can maintain. I am 5'9" so 144 actually puts me almost into a size 6. I would love to get down to and maintain right around 148. That lands me into a size 8 in most clothing lines. A size 6 in the really expensive ones, of course . . . and Banana Republic which I think is weird. If Banana Republic and Gap and Old Navy are all one and the same, shouldn't their sizes be one and the same? But no! Anyway . . .
Realizing that we're heading on vacation and I just don't diet well over vacation, but also heading into summer, which means I eat way better . . . fruits and veggies just sound good! Although I do drink more . . . it's just the seasonal thing to do! I also am still breastfeeding and that is really my priority right now. I think that a 1.5 pound per week (average) weight loss is fairly realistic. So if I have 30 pounds to lose, I should be able to lose them over approximately 20 weeks. Which would land me at August 31st. (Nothing like being my heaviest over the course of swimsuit season . . . but anyway . . . )
If, however, I feel like my ability to nurse Halle is ever at risk, I will back off the weight loss journey ASAP. It's just not worth it to me. I can always lose weight. I only have so long to offer this to my baby girl. And I really want to get her close to a year. It would save us $$$$$ versus buying formula and I really believe it's the best start for her.
So I'll join Weight Watchers tomorrow. And begin the journey. Thank God for those Flex Points, is all I have to say. I like to drink my Flex Points. It just seems like the responsible thing to do! There are still Flex Points, right? Someone better tell me that there are! Because that is what keeps me sane, calculating the number of margaritas I can drink over the course of this adventure! (I really do sound like I need to be in a meeting, don't I?)
Once I plot it out, it makes me feel a little more in control. I can go buy a few summer pieces to get us through Hawaii and into summer, because I am only talking about one season's worth of clothes. By fall, I can be back into the clothes that are already in my closet. And I adore skirts and tanks for the summer, which can typically span a couple of sizes, versus being so exact.
This is going to be OK. I just have to stop my incessant binging, and be accountable when I do binge. That's the beauty of WW for me. There is nothing off-limits. I just have to account for everything that goes into my mouth. And that's where I gain my weight, is by popping stuff into my mouth and acting like it doesn't add up. (It does, add up, by the way. Just look at my size 14 ass for proof!)
I will take a photo this week. Just for me. (Sorry!) And then when I hit my goal weight, I'll post the comparision. Kind of like the old photos they rip through on Biggest Loser, but not quite as dramatic!
If anyone (Bueller? Bueller?) wants to go on this journey with me? I'm sure there is a way to set up a group through Yahoo or something that would allow us to support one another. Otherwise, I'll be putting it out there for you all to see. Every week. But only once a week. Because there's a lot more to my life than how big my butt is!
Peace out! We're heading to baseball, amigos.